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...Hm. A past that can't be brought back, huh?
Kanna, you might not want to talk to me anymore, but I'm going to say this anyway. So that you may at least be able to see it.
I know what past can't be brought back. It's the past where you were normal. Just a girl that I fell in love with. You weren't involved in anything supernatural. You weren't trying to fix everything, like that cult that was around, before... That's the first and last time I've really seen you scared of something, Kanna. The fact that you could be meant that you weren't someone "special". That you knew there were things that people did not understand, or triumph over.
You were just you.
And then... There's the past where I was how I was. Unemotional. Cold. Colder than I am right now. I didn't know about these abilities back then... But I guess I wouldn't have needed them. I was basically a frozen bastard, no doubt due to how everything was... Especially with North School.
I didn't fall in love with you at first. In fact, I rejected your attraction to me, when you admitted it.
...But I grew to care about you. To love you. I became devoted to you... To the point where your presence alone could make me happy.
...Being away from you is the worst thing I could imagine, because of that. But I try to give you the space you need... I try to keep my distance, while you think.
...But I need to stop being so complacent about this. Or I'm going to lose this... Something that I've worked for, and something that I want to stay, no matter what troubles might appear.
Speak to me. Yell at me. Do anything you want. I don't care what, because I'll at least know, that at this point, it's you that shall say it. Unchanged from who you are. Unchanged from what you are.
And it will never change the fact that I'll love you more than anything... And will never change the fact that I'll never leave you.
But I know that we can at least work through this, as long as we're at least willing to speak... And who knows, maybe some "happiness" will be there... Just like the happiness I had, when I knew that there was a chance that I could spend my life with you.
Kanna, you might not want to talk to me anymore, but I'm going to say this anyway. So that you may at least be able to see it.
I know what past can't be brought back. It's the past where you were normal. Just a girl that I fell in love with. You weren't involved in anything supernatural. You weren't trying to fix everything, like that cult that was around, before... That's the first and last time I've really seen you scared of something, Kanna. The fact that you could be meant that you weren't someone "special". That you knew there were things that people did not understand, or triumph over.
You were just you.
And then... There's the past where I was how I was. Unemotional. Cold. Colder than I am right now. I didn't know about these abilities back then... But I guess I wouldn't have needed them. I was basically a frozen bastard, no doubt due to how everything was... Especially with North School.
I didn't fall in love with you at first. In fact, I rejected your attraction to me, when you admitted it.
...But I grew to care about you. To love you. I became devoted to you... To the point where your presence alone could make me happy.
...Being away from you is the worst thing I could imagine, because of that. But I try to give you the space you need... I try to keep my distance, while you think.
...But I need to stop being so complacent about this. Or I'm going to lose this... Something that I've worked for, and something that I want to stay, no matter what troubles might appear.
Speak to me. Yell at me. Do anything you want. I don't care what, because I'll at least know, that at this point, it's you that shall say it. Unchanged from who you are. Unchanged from what you are.
And it will never change the fact that I'll love you more than anything... And will never change the fact that I'll never leave you.
But I know that we can at least work through this, as long as we're at least willing to speak... And who knows, maybe some "happiness" will be there... Just like the happiness I had, when I knew that there was a chance that I could spend my life with you.
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Date: 2008-03-16 04:31 am (UTC)From: